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Thursday, December 30, 2010

this few days mood was kinda not very good!!! there is lot of matters in my mind... why i always feel happy when i out of my house? why? firstly my brother result out, whether can get in to ite anot.. need my help to log in.. while i working.. okay nvm.. this small matter i can help... his result need to wait for today to come out, wait le... unsuccessful, need to appeal... my brother since lik dun bother or wat? i dunno... till out he was outside... sometimes i really hope to keep all my anger in my heart.. but i failed to do so.. i totally failed!!! tml i not coming home... my mum expect me to help my brother since my brother today sure very late come home.. why cant he learn? if he dun learn now.. what about few years later? am i goin to keep teaching him? am i? what if one day i not around? who help him? i not 24hrs help him.. NOT!!! i hope to have my own life... i hope to live my life.. i really hope.. i really hope i can independent.. and 2nd thing is... we really cant communicate well.. i cant even talk to my dad, mum, brother well.. iszzit my personal problem? i really wondering..

monday i was on urgent leave, but i came back from office the 2nd day which is on tues... the emotion of my department was weird... was lik i'm taking leave is my fault.. i dun understand.. i'm really tired sitting in front of my colleague... sometimes she really give a bad face... as my character too cheerful... it look lik i'm had done a wrong character... i hope if can.. if possible.. i will try to SHUT UP!!! ever thought having a good colleagues.. yah.. sometimes they really not bad.. there is a long way for me to think, for me to learn.. i still learning.. but most of the times i failed!!! sometimes life is so no meaningful.. really NO!!! i had vent out my anger just now... i'm tired... i just hope to shut up.. really... no.. is i hope to shout out.. but i'm too tired.. that why i hope to shut up for now.. my parents will never notice me.. will never notice my emotion... haix.. there is lots of thing i tired to type out.. really tired!!! bye~

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