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Monday, November 02, 2009

since from last week we quarrel.. our relationship was moved abit.. as he always said i complaint to him which my mum nag me.. sijiang and him did tell me.. it time to really wake up.. it time to really grow up.. it time to really think about it.. i believe i gave up alot of things because of him.. why i turn into like this? i also dunno.. maybe i really love him too deep.. as 2 years of relationship.. althought sometimes feel lik saying break off.. but i really cant say out from my mouth.. but once i know he was abit tired of me.. i feel so sad.. he tired of what the way i said to him everyday abt my mum... i cant blame anyone.. maybe tat was my habit? i dunno.. ya.. i also think that.. that not the way to complaint.. i cannot always blame things on others.. mum nag me.. sure have some reason.. till today i relise of something.. she not nagging me today.. as i doing well today.. yah.. i think really have the problem with me.. it really time to grow up.. i really must be independent.. i cant always lend on my parents or dear.. i really must do it by myself.. i gonna find the job.. not because of the sake of avoiding parents nagging.. partly is because of my own good and future.. what if i work? i seldom at home.. den partly it really avoiding of their nagging... den she wont nag me that everyday nth to do.. secondly i can earn money by my own hands.. den have money den can buy anything i want. save money for future, save money for the things i want to buy.. ya? den thirdly.. i can help dear to support something.. if he need to pay bills till he no much money? den i can help him.. forthly.. i can pay my bills too.. fifthly.. i can buy food by my own, so next time go out dun always let dear pay.. or maybe sometimes can treat him eat something.. there are lots of things to do when u have work... have exp, have money.. and lots lots lots.. as wat sijiang said.. life and relationship really must play with it.. as not fool with it.. i cant really explain out.. in my heart i get what he really mean can liao.. live for many years.. i just found out that i so worst? sometimes really thinking.. am i really that worst? am i? i cant say dunno anymore.. i must face the fact.. the truth.. yah.. i tink i really worst.. the worst that they ever say.. i cant just see the outlook of it.. i cant just see what they really said.. what they really look.. just 1 part of it.. if want to listen what they really said.. must really listen full story.. sometimes time really money... cant always say full details.. it best tat short and nice and understand.. den other words i must really listen and think properly.. den as see lehx? i cant just see 1 side of it.. i really must see all the sides.. just like human do have alot of sides.. i cant just see him or her good to me.. that mean he really good.. i dunno i tink that iszzit correct.. so.. i must really go tink.. tml gonna go net and find job again.. as today not much job.. jia you ba.. vivian.. i believe u can do better than before.. i believe.. and i hope i haf confident that i will change one day.. and wont go back to the worst me.. once have confident.. it really must dare to do it.. jia you.. =)

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