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Friday, January 12, 2007

today went to see mr ng and say about i wan to quit school. well. he ask me alot of qns. talk to me alot alot alot. haix. end up he wan me to continue study. he even ask me wan a COUNSELLOR anot. omg. no thanks. i dun need any. haha. he asked me 1 qn. what i really wan to do? before u set ur mind think properly den quit this course. when i keep thinking abt this. it make me sad. well. in secondary school i put a high hope to go nursing. well. it already gone. and other dreams. well. when i was young to ite 2006. i think alot alot. and have alot alot of dreams. end up. it juz nth. now i keep thinking... i really dunno wat my dreams was. well. i did tink abt something. i just wan to learn something which need to use my both hands and mouth. tat will do. haha. well. dun need to always use brain. haha. erm... i really mean that... not really go and study study study those things. keep study until end. haix..... who can tell me what i really wan to do? phew. nvr say MAN this word. haha. if not mei yan gonna say me. haha. when today teacher ask me alot of things. well. I CONTROL MY TEARS man. haha. i always lik tat. alittle bit thing ask or wat den wan to cry. =X erm. haha. i seldom cry. bleax. when on the way home on bus i keep thinking. it make me wan to cry again. i control again. phew. den went home tell mummy abt this den wan to cry again. control again. phew phew phew. until i went to my room and rest. end up 1 tear drop. phew. feel abit great. onli abit. haha. cause nvr really CRY OUT LOUD!!! hee. i always got something hide inside my heart i nvr show out my face. juz hide somewhere in the night and cry. not 1st time. is alot of times. i not use to cry in front of ppl for no reason. well. cry out in front of ppl i dun feel good. cause sure alot of ppl ask me alot of qns. i juz try to control. tat will do. control is the best thing to do. i choose to hide. ppl always think i always happy. well. i did. i enjoy alot. but i did hide sometimes. omg. talking to fuxian in msn. suddenly cry out. I MUZ CONTROL. haha. anyway the fact i wan to learn alot of things. those thing is rubbish thing. music? acting? dancing? drawing? alot alot.. haix. nvm. i will go and tink abt it ba.

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